Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Changing my eating habits

One of my biggest issues is (has and always will be!) my eating habits. They suck. Royally. I used to track what I ate & I was so embarrassed by the amount of calories I took in some days that I just quit doing it. Even to this day, I don't want to track what I eat. I become obsessive over it. I also don't "diet". The minute I decide to "diet", I go into this weird craving mode where I HAVE to EAT ALL THE THINGS. I have actually changed my eating habits some over the last year, since my husband finally decided to kick it into gear & lose some weight. (He lost around 80 lbs, BTW!) 

I don't cook, which is a big part of my problem. I get hungry so I grab whatever is quick & easy - which usually ends up being something processed & awful for me. Sooo... I actually planned ahead (at least a little). I hard boiled some eggs & made baggies of veggies that I could grab when I got hungry. Kinda proud of myself for this one. :) Let's hope this is the start of a positive habit rather than a one-off type of deal!

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Keep on keepin' on

I honestly can say now that the highlight of most of my days involve going to the gym. I've always enjoyed how I feel after working out, but have always struggled with the motivation to go. There have been so many days when I *KNOW* I should have gone, but I made up a million of excuses as to why I couldn't/shouldn't go. 
A lot of my issues stem from what I call "gym-timidation". Obviously, I'm not skinny or perky or super flexy bendy like a lot of the 'chicks' in the gym. I am very overweight. I sweat like a beast. Even with my inhaler, my asthma makes me huff & puff like a steam engine on it's last leg. 
I'm not there with my super cute work out clothes on, or my hair just right, or acting daintly around the weights while the "tough guys" really work out. When I go to the gym, I am there TO WORK. I have my headphones on at all times - so unless it's something really important like my form is wrong & I'm going to get hurt - please do not talk to me. I want to learn how to do different exercises that will tone different muscles - ones that I obviously don't know HOW to tone properly. 
I am there to get FIT. Not skinny. I want to be a stronger, healthier, more toned version of who I am now. I'm tired of body image issues. Now trust me, I'm realistic & I'm well aware that there are certain issues that I may never be able to lay to rest. However, I've got 3 young kids that are learning about body image & self worth from me - and I certainly don't want them to feel the same way I've always felt.  
Anyway, I guess that was my rant for the morning. Not sure where that came from, but obviously I felt like it needed to be said!

With all that being said, if you have any suggestions on good workouts, new things to try, etc - please let me know. I'm always open to suggestions!!!

Thanks for sticking with me guys!

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Long, off week

Ok, so this week has NOT been the greatest. On top of my own normal struggles, I am helping my mom deal with a major life-changing health issue. My sleep schedule has been totally off (as in completely didn't even sleep one night). I haven't felt well physically, mentally, or emotionally, so I haven't been working out near as much as I would have liked. I have at least not been eating everything in the house which makes a difference. :) I'm hoping I can get myself  back on track in the next week or so.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

New Addiction

This whole going to the gym & kicking my own butt is becoming quite the obsession. I'm spending around 2 hours a night at the gym (I'm trying to go at least every other day right now). If I can't get to the gym, then I do an hour & a half of cardio at home. (I've got this really awesome workout video list on YouTube!) Each day my legs are sore (TMI, getting up & down off the toilet is painful for my quads). Reaching up to get something out of the cabinet makes my shoulders scream a little. But I *LOVE* it. Now granted, I probably look a little psychotic (it was almost 1 am & I'd been there for 2 hours), but I feel GREAT.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Beginning pictures

Warning - these images may burn your retinas! This is where I am starting. I took these pictures 2 days ago at the gym before heading out on the floor. And yes, I did put a long sleeve t shirt on over all that.

I will say I've had more motivation lately, and it feels so good to get into the gym - which has been wonderful. I did sneak a few measurements yesterday & am ecstatic to report that I am making some progress!!! I love external motivators. :)

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Starting point measurements

Thought it might be pertinent to get starting measurements as well as weight since I'm also doing weight training. These were probably done a week or so ago.

Weight: 210

Biceps: 14 inches

Calves: 15 1/4 inches

Thighs: 24 inches

Hips: 45 1/2 inches

Abdomen: 47 3/4 inches

Chest: 47 inches

Neck: 13 1/4 inches

Needless to say, I've got lots of work to do. I'm hoping to do monthly measurements. Otherwise I get super obsessive about the numbers (I step on the scale multiple times a day - like it's really gonna change).


I'm hoping that maybe I can actually make this a regular thing to keep myself on track. I start out all gung-ho and then a week or so later - absolutely kaput. It makes me disappointed in myself & discouraged. I'm convinced that I'm destined to be fat & lazy & undesirable forever.